List of Content
What is Company // What lights my fire // What am I alone // Who is in control here // We will remember // Pleasure Beach // A day in the life // Cwtch me when you can // My life safe - unsafe // What a sight // A Morning // To be or not to be // A midsummer night's reel // One and one (a pair) // Over 70s // Together we grow // What's better // Wanted // Looking for the light // Upwards and inwards // One god of all people // Letting go of the day // If only I knew // No one's slave // Nature Unlocked // As I sit 'meditations' // Just Veg // Hands up hands down // Hey You // Us // Vulnerability // I wait // The Mind // Dandelion Seeds // All is love // Wrapped in safety // You and me // A Fair Brexit // Extinction // Can't cure love // Is it worth it // Me myself and I // Evening Retire // I field the memories // Wild peace // My toolbox // A moment being experienced
What is Company?
31st December 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
What is company
Is it real
I feel like a cutout girl today
With lots of clothes to pin on me
Hats gloves and shoes galore
Accessories all colours shapes and forms
Dressed differently for all occasions
Whether it be spring summer or fall
Make up that matches my outfits
Coats that are warm or extra lightweight
Every girls delight
So like my cardboard cutout girl
I have no real life outside this house
Nowhere safe to go and laugh
Without company life is so very flat
Oh how my cutout girl understands that!
She feels more real than she ever should
More important than is healthy too
But without her I would be alone for sure
Being made of cardboard
Might be an allure
What is company
Is it real
I feel like a cutout girl today
With lots of clothes to pin on me
Hats gloves and shoes galore
Accessories all colours shapes and forms
Dressed differently for all occasions
Whether it be spring summer or fall
Make up that matches my outfits
Coats that are warm or extra lightweight
Every girls delight
So like my cardboard cutout girl
I have no real life outside this house
Nowhere safe to go and laugh
Without company life is so very flat
Oh how my cutout girl understands that!
She feels more real than she ever should
More important than is healthy too
But without her I would be alone for sure
Being made of cardboard
Might be an allure
What Lights my fire
5th October 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I ask what gives me a buzz
That’s besides my front doorbell
And there, I don’t have one!
So thinking hard I wonder
And find myself writing this
Poetry is in my blood I find
A topic is all I need and I’m away
Juggling with words is great fun
Colour, I so love playing with
It’s almost limitless you see
I am always finding new ways
Recently challenged myself with white
I’m surprised how some colours
Become almost unrecognisable
I would not have seen this
Without all my experimentation
Intelligent conversation I love
Stretching my mind to know more
Looking at things from different angles
Seeing someone else’s point of view
The many twists and turns of learning
Knowing you will never know it all
I find this so very satisfying
With discovery there’s just has no end
Everyone who really knows me
Will tell you how very keen I am
To gain and share tools for Emotions
Which will help you navigate this life
The many ups and downs and hurdles
As you are pulled in all directions
Remember a tool is only useful
When used, not when left in it’s box
There seems to be
Quite a lot:-)
What am i alone?
4th October 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Who do I become in solitude
I have the potential to be content
I know because sometimes I am so
But I loose my sense of purpose
No one talking to me so no listening
When I need to express my joys
There is no one there to share
When something angers me inside
I only have me, to release pressure
What is life about if not connection
Life’s purpose on ones own isn’t clear
There is no one to give or receive from
Not even a single smile to give away
Unless you look in the mirror, that’s sad
I look into those eyes and wonder why
I live alone no one to care each day
I like myself and often my own company
I make my own rules, live my way
Do what I want when I want to
So there are many positives to life
I have a lovely family I am blessed
Many friends I am truly very fond of
But living alone is a cruel ending
To a life where I have given so much to so many
Alone I become
a smaller portion of myself
Who is in control here?
19th September 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
We are pushed to the very limit
By emails we don’t even want
On overload always overwhelmed
How does this serve us I ask
I find it so hard to switch off
Knowing there’s always more
More more more, just go away
All I wanted to do just now
Was call a friend on the phone
Distractions catching my eye
I flicked from one thing to another
Not really getting anywhere
I dart from phone to iPad
I dare not miss a thing
There may be something important
That might even change my life
Really, do I believe this is true
I see sadly, some days I do
I need to turn this chaos
Around, in an orderly way
Ask my granddaughters help
File my emails, to important
I’ll see you later or not see at all
To Give me space and some time
Just the thought
Makes me feel better
We will remember
5th August 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Your life for mine thank you
I am humbled by your gift
I salute you blessed souls
Gone to rest before your time
Love never dies it lingers on
In the hearts of those left behind
We will remember all who died
No matter what nationality
Showing through this very action
The futility of war, man’s sin
Let’s prize peace contentment
Death then may wait for aged men
Yes at the setting of the sun
We hear the bugler play again
The ‘Last Post’ a sombre note
A sign of respect for all souls
Ransomed healed restored forgiven
May we be all pardoned too
Let us not try to justify
The act of war
Pleasure Beach
4th August 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I’m down the beach the tide is right in
Waves rolling and slowly they release
You can almost taste the sea so salty
I could be anywhere in the whole world
I think of crab sandwiches in Cornwall
Fishing off the Quay lines bated waiting
My many children laughing and crying
Holidays when too tied at end of day
To do anything but sit and simply be
Eating anything filling hungry mouths
Tummies emptied from walking swimming
Feet stretched well used, holes in shoes
Early to bed soft clean sheets all ready
Bodies tied minds calming relaxing still
Every day should be a holiday you say
Until the rain comes and the wind blows
Your stuck inside with kids going wild
Praying for another summer day to come
A crane has just landed on the beach
This brings me back to the here and now
Long legs outstretched in line with neck
Like a dark grey chalk line across the sky
Too many people it moves quickly on
An unexpected treat on a summer eve
Minute spider walks on back of my hand
Then slowly up my arm his tickling me
I look down again and he has just gone
So tiny the hairs must have felt Forrest like
Boat in the distance where is he going
I sit people watching because I now can
Simple pleasures
We still have these
A day in the life of
4th August 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I sit looking at the rolling sand dunes
A place of play when children young
The river meandering in front of me now
I close my eyes and see our rubber dingy
Children laughing splashing swimming
To the far left I see the sea with white surf
Remembering my son’s delight in surfing
Cherished memories long gone I paint
Have parked by the side of a nosey road
So eager was I to find a free parking space
This being my third mistake of the day
So brave going up a bank ‘spur of the moment’
Had I stopped to think I wouldn’t have done
Not sure how I am going to back off this
It’s alright to have courage to do and find
But had I left my adult sensible head behind
Got all my things ready to come out, last night
Way in advance packed neatly awaiting me
All I had to do was pick it all up and go
So thats just what I did, scouped and went
No thought for my phone which lay on bed
My alarm for this morning appointment at 10
I had High hopes for my day, outing at last
It’s been many months since I had a foray
Even got a mixing bowl with a lid and a hole
A toilet as most I have heard are closed
So here I sit the view is really lovely in sun
People paddling canoes helped by the wind
Dogs having fun wagging, shaking weeing
I realise I will have to wee too not so easy
I put my mixing bowl on the seat beside me
We look at each other, how is this done
I climb in the passenger seat sat up high
I watch the cars as they go by not knowing
That I am weeing and watching them too
Though I know I am covered not exposed
In the distance 2 horses and a pony ridden
Their seating high too much easier for sure
I smile because that is all one can do yes
This pandemic gets us doing the oddest things
But life goes on even if in a different way
The views haven’t changed, well some haven’t
People on surf type boards standing with paddle
Have only seen that done on TV before now
I don’t quite get the point of this sort of sport
That’s probably because I’m not the one doing
So many people out enjoying this weather
Haven’t see so many people for some months
I decide to go and park in an official car park
When I get there guess what? It’s already full
So off I drive till I find another off road park
Over looking the sea I’m on top of a steep cliff
To escape the noise of traffic and the wind
I take my seat cuppa soup and homemade bread
Down a cliff steeper than I had thought it was
I sit quietly though feeling rather vulnerable here
To one side I suddenly see a notice ‘falling cliffs’
I see a picture of my daughters frowning face
The trouble is I know just how right she is
I just wanted a quiet space with a view I say
Lunch is enjoyed and this poem written in pencil
Which decides to fall off my precarious lap
As I try to save it I nearly topple it’s long way
Oh how badly could this outing end I wonder
I decide to go, my adventure is on it’s way out
A chair and steep hill now that is a challenge
Kind young girl offers her help takes my chair
And stands there watching that I stay safe
I wanted so much to take her offered hand
But sadly my arms are not two metres long
Afterwards I realised I had hand sanitiser
So touching would have been alright outside
What have I got out of this sunny outing of mine
My glasses are mended that’s why I ventured
I have fresh air in lungs and pictures in my mind
Magically car’s in one piece though not my back
On the way home a field full of crows lined on fence
Others flapping and crowing a crowd gathering
All in all I am glad I went round the next bend
And I seem to have survived with no terrible end
Me at 75
Here’s to adventures never ending
Cwtch me when
4th August 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
It’s been so long
Cwtch a year old, it’s Happy Birthday
Who would have thought this name
Would be the very thing we couldn’t do
The most yearned and longed for of all
Touch me only on your iPad they say
Keep 2 metres away no matter what
This was the agony for most people
16 weeks without being hugged at all
Isolation, pain, desperation that’s sharp
Stiff upper lip was hard to keep to
Brave face with a smile on your lips
But in our hearts we are all crying
Touch the most precious of life’s gifts
As chemicals from two beings merge
Making something new that feels so good
When we don’t get touched we loose
The connection that’s so important
It makes us feel whole and very loved
Cwtch me when
One day soon
My life safe - unsafe
2nd August 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Born safe with safe arms, warm milk and love, safe!
Age 0-5 safe, mummy and daddy always there for me, safe!
Age 5-8 unsafe chaos, can’t get it right mummy’s OCD now, oh!
Age 8-14 everywhere and nowhere that’s safe or mine, but a trunk!
Age 14-26 belong nowhere and no one to care, alone, unsafe!
Age 26-30 safe at last a house and a husband, I’m fine, safe!
But deep down I’m not safe, no one taught me how.
Age 30-40 An accident to husband, oh here goes again, unsafe!
Age 41-49 safe but not secure still not sorted that one out!
Age 50-501/2 so so so unsafe, alcohol rules his life, help, help!
Age 52-521/4 sigh of relief, I feel loved happy and safe, hurrah!
Age 521/4-67 chaos, controlled, at first I don’t see, just how unsafe it was for me
Until death showed its face, and all because of narcissistic personality complex B.
Age 67-now safe, safe, safe at last, it took a long long time,
Although I know that it is true, believing it is slow to come, but!
At last I can be who I am, no need for someone else I see,
Safe, no more unsafe for me, safe and sound for all to see,
Scared of no one not even of ME!
What a sight!
21st July 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I find myself sat on the cliffs again
Well away from the edge this time
Sea is so calm and the ripples so small
I can see for miles 3 cliffs jutting out
The sun is warm and I forgot my hat
So I sit with my vest covering my head
Flies seem to like me, think it’s the white
A dozen or so buzzing quietly overhead
White trousers white vest white saddles
I try not to notice too much it’s so lovely
Have just painted the view not very well
But it’s got people talking to me, so nice
Am pleased with my day glasses fixed
Clothes that didn’t fit returned to source
Car full of petrol the first since lockdown
That’s four and a half months on one tank
Soup, bread, cheese square of chocolate
Can of coke enjoyed always naughty, nice
I think about the refugees coming by dingy
It would be a good day with calm water
I have so much to be thankful for today
And every other day we are so lucky
Here on this beautiful island a fab life
We should all remember this gratefully
No dangerous journey for us born here
Little understanding what others endure
Yet if they all end up coming to this land
How will we cope with the over crowding
Would we not do better to help them stay
Where they are, encouraging them at home
I want it to work
The best for us all
A Morning
Touching friendship
21st July 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I sit in the garden of a friend
It’s shady here under the Acer
The dappled sunlight moving with the breeze
A dove coo coos in the background
Pale pink roses dripping colour
Along the wall in my direction
Their scent wafting in waves past me
I catch them in my nose and I remember
The many times before I have sniffed
This unmistakable full face aroma
Not a smell I really warm to much
But out here it feels so right, perfect
I have bought my watercolours
The intention is to paint some flowers
I look at the roses and I know
It must be them but they’re so hard
I remind myself it doesn’t matter
This is just a time to have some fun
So putting my pen down on the table
I pick up my paintbrush and I start
In the kitchen
Pans clatter
To Be or not to Be
19th July 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I so want to see my guardian Angel, in front of me
Is it that He is shy
Sometimes I can imagine Him wafting past awhile
When I am alone
He is often in my mind my heart and my soul
I await His touch
So light and gentle like a breeze that caresses me
In a different realm
Just the thought of His presence and I feel very safe
Invisible protection
No one can harm me as He watches over my being
Comfort and peace
Was that my hair He just tugged with a sense of fun
Or my imagination
Is the sun light playing with my eyes or is it really Him
Him or Her uncertain
I know I so want and need an Angel beside me now
The Bible promises?
I am not sure but they were there in times of old
So why not now
I see what I want to see
We all have choices
A Midsummer Night's reel
28th June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
It’s 10.30 and still a little light tonight
New moon shines in windows corner
Stars twinkling hello to me from a far
Loneliness helped by certain knowledge
That many other people will be viewing
They also struggling with isolation too
I’ve just eaten home made rice pudding
Am glad no one can see exactly how much
I could be tempted to eat some more
Till I remember weighing scales waiting
It was bad enough last week so I must stop
I need to cook badly then I would stay slim
Sleep calls my name and I know I must go
Once I get there I know it will be all right
I slip into my so comfortable big bed
Wrap myself in a soft cosy warm blanket
Close my eyes and await the purple mist
Knowing sleep is just a few blinks away
A pivotal moment
Summer coming and going
One and One (a pair)
13th June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
An old lady walks slowly up the hill in front of me
Her ageing dog taking his time sniffing familiar smells
Neither of them hurrying the other one just being
Taking their time in acceptance of both their needs
I get a picture of patience togetherness these companions
Understanding each other in ways words can’t do
Knowing the ins and outs of their lives together
Bonded by their equal needs of the other
Age and time doesn’t enter their head space
Each day flows one into another and backwards
They don’t know what day it is or really care
Moulded one to the other in habits unspoken
It feels such a comfort to watch them pass by
Old age has it’s benefits, if you look close enough
Companionship score
Ten plus and more
Over 70s
Suffering Singles
23rd June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
The roads have been opened eventually
Ninety eight days without beach access
I try to leave some of my anger behind me
My over 70’s isolation unthought through
By leaders leaving people alone wrongly
Permission to join up with an isolated other
Would have saved so much mental pain
But no compassion shown by government
My isolation feels a complete waste of time
No one coming near me after three weeks
Could have caught anything from me or
If they had done the same thing I from them
So many people suffering unnecessarily
How long will we feel the effects I wonder?
It’s been an emotional time for me today
Deprived of people and my local beach
It’s been too much to bear to big an ask
I park and open my window and sniff
Sea air, is it really happening at long last
I get out excitedly I can see the horizon
Space sky seagulls sand sea I secretly cry
I take off my trainers and feel the sand
It’s warm and firm as I form foot prints
The sand squishes between my ten toes
I hear the distant sound of seagulls
The sea is right out so to meet I go
I missed you so much I tell it passionately
Like so much else and so many people
Will I ever be the same
Today I say no
Together we grow
20th June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I lie there exhausted yet so fulfilled
A nurse hands me a weighty bundle
And as he is placed in my arms
An enormous wave of love fills me
This wave so powerful envelopes us
We are still one, totally connected
I wrap my arms around him with a promise
I will protect you, you’re safe with me
We slowly grow in confidence together
He is new to this big world of ours
I am new to motherhood, it’s a first
We shift and reshape what works for us
Learning together what it means to love
Love is not something I have understood
No one to teach me as a young child
What does total acceptance mean
He teaches me so much about trust
Another word I’d not fully understood
So hand in hand we walk this journey
Day by day we grow develop, change
When he is hurting I can empathise
Oh poor you I tell him with a hug
Isn’t that what we all need and want
Entering breathing that is more than our own
I was not the perfect mother of all time
I made mistakes along the pathway
I had my own issues to contend with
My mental health was never great
But I was always there to really listen
Never doubted your great capabilities
Knew you were special, a gifted son
But no experience on how to help with this
I love you son through thick and thin
As you show me you love me too
The greatest gift was given to me
I was the chosen one to berth you
How deep how wide the Hare asked
Does your love really measure big
As arms out spread both ways across
Yes I say, but with a giants arms
As you grow I slowly let go the strands
That have held us close so long
I watch you make your own world
I see weaknesses grow into strengths
Your apart of me, yes that’s literally
As I was built of parts of my mum too
She too ill to see who I grew up to be
So I feel privileged and appreciate you
Time goes by and as I get older
I know one day I will leave this world
My sadness is not that death will come
But that I will no longer see my son
A mothers love never dies
It last the test of time
What's Better?
10th June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
What’s Better
Nothing
Nothing could be better in the whole world
Than wanting nothing content and at peace
But how often do we get to feel this way
Not nearly often enough, what a shame
I can however remember the last time
Sitting in my Body park swinging my legs
Listening to the birds and thinking, perfect
Unwilling to let go of this space and time
Oh to be back to this memory once again
If not physically I can be there in my mind
Sitting here on a rainy day eyes closed
Searching for a repeat of that lovely time
We don’t need money, possessions fame
Just be willing and grateful for here and now
But it is never going to be an easy option
It means letting go of should be’s and must’s
Can we do it
It is possible
Wanted
Words from another world
10th June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I had a mother so long long ago
I hardly knew her she was always ill
What I wouldn’t give to have writing that she left
A peek into who she was, what she thought
A sentence I would settle for, though I want more
To touch that part of her hidden by her pain
To hear her words, ones not expressing grief
But ones of joy the child in her could share
Her interests and her hopes and dreams
What she was good at, what she loved to do
Sadly I have to settle to look inside of me
She would have imparted some of her values
And my character would be partly etched by her
I look inside me and see some of her shine through
I Settled for
What she had built in me
Looking for the light
8th June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Looking for the light
To get me through another day
Highlights of my day must be
My first conscious thoughts
Is it time to awaken just now
Or can I snooze some more
I love the first stretch tip to toe
Then into Pilates lying down
30 mins knowing I’m doing well
Tea calls me to sip it’s nectar next
Warm soapy water glides over skin
Then shower turned to icy cold
Brace myself one side then another
Invigorated wrapped in towel with ‘halo’
Porridge served with fruit and yogurt
Healthy and tasty start to each day
Catch up with emails some are good
Play Words with Friends ‘I don’t know’
Pause, coffee time with chicory
Dark smooth chocolate eighty percent
Melting in the mouth rich and silky
As I drink deep tastes twist together
Time to walk see what nature’s doing
Feel the breeze brushing my face
The sun warming me right through
Or rain pitter patter on my hood
The day shape shifting slowly changing
Into timeless space as I drift forward
From one day to the next and the next
Holding on as best I can to here and now
Lunch a light meal with green salad
Dribbled with salad cream and cheese
Washed down with occasional treat
Cola, addiction I have found again
On to visualisation or to meditate
Visit a lake house under the stars
Or feeling freedom in hot air balloon
Swim with a mermaid under the sea
Time to tidy and clean this place
Looks so good when it’s all done
Prepare the dinner meat and veg
Phone call always from my son
Now with not much get up and go
I turn the telly on, but not for long
Not much to view that interests me
Maybe I will try an old film instead
Up the stairs phone and iPad in tow
Hot wheat-bag wrapped around my neck
Call daughter to say ‘good night dear’
Another day of lockdown done
83 days and counting
How many more
Upwards and Inwards
2nd June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Upwards and inwards
Not straight forward
I would like to see light at the end of the tunnel
But everywhere I turn I hear doom and gloom
There is forever hope I tell myself very sternly
Man has always found ways to turn things around
I think we are up against the wall big this time
Have we the will to take the very necessary steps
Can we let go of the need to make a huge profit
And just be pleased to work with this wonderful world
I’d like to think love and kindness were our masters
Sharing and caring contributing the gifts we all have
Not asking for the ‘world’ to satisfy our every desire
But finding contentment with being ‘fed and watered’
I believe there’s a pathway hiding amongst the trees
If we really want we will find the key one day maybe
Being open to all possibilities taking a different root
Seeing with new eyes what is really important to us
Sharing the depth of what is deep inside each of us
Finding new ways to be satisfied with what we have
Not always needing the next new fad that comes along
Fulfilling our need in the simple pleasures of friendship
Then and only then
Will we know how
One God of all people
With many names
2nd June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
There is only one God of this amazing world
He has different names, given by many people
But most of His attributes are nearly the same
So lets concentration on all our similarities
Lets worship as we all need to worship Him
Bow down and praise His Holy of Holy names
Giving thanks for all that He has given to us
Being humble contrite and really meaning this
Lets not say the words and think we're done!
But work on them making them part of us
Knowing it is only in the act of doing this
That we can feel at peace inside of us
Let’s not need to tell the world we’re right
But listen to what God has said to us
And in the listening ask for His wise counsel
So we know how to be all He meant us to be
We can be so much more
Let’s do it!
Healing Needed
2nd June 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I don’t need anyone to tell me what to do
I just need to be heard what I’m going through
I have so much knowledge and tools to use
And though essential they only help in part
No solutions please! just love and time
It’s connection empathy and a heart to hear
So if I really listen to what you say and feel
When it’s my turn will you do the same for me
And in this sharing of our deepest thoughts
Healing will have a chance, a process starting
Our brokenness fears rejection and isolation
Begin to take there place along the well trod road
Of Life
Love shared for healing
Letting go of the day
In tomorrow's hope
18th May 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
In the darkness of my mind this minute
I wonder how I can break through the gloom
I have the feeling of being worthy of love
Yet no one to love me as I have long for
How does one hold onto knowing you’re lovable
When there is no one to show you it’s true
Holding your own hand in the black moments
It’s so hard, keep believing in yourself each day
I know we are all alone in our minds but
With love and encouragement we can see light
Alone and it’s bedtime no one to say good night
The night swamps me and I feel I will drown
Put one foot in front of another up the stairs
Pull the blanket of today over my head
Tomorrow and tomorrow will come without help
So will the night
Let’s look for a star
If only I knew
16th May 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
How low do the lows have to really get
Before you can turn them around in your head
How many cries do you have to let go of
Before you can find peace even for awhile
How low
How long do we torture ourselves with feeling of loss
Before we can find a new way to be alone
How much pain do we carry from childhood
Before we see it’s only alive now, in our minds
How long
How will we find a way of expressing our desolation
Before someone really sees, and does it matter
How can anyone make a difference to what we feel
Before we ourselves nurture the joy we were born with
How will
How closed with stiff upper lip do we soldier on
Before the tears pour out of our eyes and we sob
How long do we go with out asking for help
Before we give in and find asking is all we needed
How closed
How can we know how to share ourselves with others
Before we spend time getting to know ourselves
How much love do we each hold in our hearts
Before we are willing to share some with the world
How can
How deep does love go, will we ever really know
Before we give up looking as it seems so hopeless
How far will we go to find the Spirit inside of us
Before we pass on to the world far beyond this
Soon, before then
One can only hope
No One's Slave
10th May 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I sit and feel the freedom in me and I know
I am no ones slave only my own master
No longer needing someone close beside me
Just the strength I was born with so long ago
70 years it has taken for me to understand this
Yours full of heartache hardship and pain
Giving and more giving in the hope of receiving love
But all in vain to men who only knew their own needs
Feeding others to meet my own unmet love
Driven to find the connection I so long, Yes yearn for
But connection to self seems the only option available
I am so glad I’ve worked hard to build who I am
Because I am my only company these long virus months
I think I’ve got it
The next minute it’s gone
Nature Unlocked
3rd May 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
My mind travels the many scenes of recent times
The orange sky peering through the distant trees
Celandines shinning like stars in the meadows
Watching the leaves daily as from buds they open
The velvety multicoloured bumble bees buzzing
Pennywort in walls, am told an edible feast for me
Bluebells wax like before my eyes slowly opening
Blackbirds saying ‘I am a very clever boy’ ‘thank you’
Cherry blossom pirouetting as ballet dancers twirl
Pink carpet of blossom awaiting the arrival of bride
Lambs feeding, prancing, tails wagging, sleeping
The sun encouraging us all to go out for a walk
We go from gushing brook to slow flowing stream
Dandelion seeds unblown seem fairytale like
Blackbirds before me in the air fiercely fighting
Black beetle slowly lifting just two legs at a time
Field from my window viewed, blue hue of Forget me nots
Blossom like snow falling over and around me
Flies all shapes and sizes with different vibrations
Making an orchestra with Bumble bee support
Locked down and typing
I remember
As I Sit (meditations)
3rd May 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
1..
I look for answers
Ways to chill my mind
And I remember
Just breathe, the first step
Now concentrating on NOW
Breathe in and slowly out
Feel the breath where it is
Nose, chest or tummy below
Breath, breathing it’s self
No need for you to help
Mind wonders, thats ok
Just bring it back, feel the breath
2..
One of the answers
Feel my feet on the floor
Body where it touches the chair
Wait bearing down and heavy
I find a comfy place in body
Maybe hands, legs or feet
I explore and enjoy the feeling
I stay with it for a while
Mind wonders to past and future
I bring it gently back to body
Grateful for the peace I’m getting
Being in the here and now
Just Veg
2nd May 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Oh thank you white cabbage for staying fresh so long
Without you dinner would’ve been decidedly dull
Spinach so bright green or at least you were
I forgot about you wilting and hidden away
And potatoes with long white shoots showing
You’re definitely on my list of foods that keep
Bananas I wish you hadn’t gone spotty so quick
I’ll freeze you and hope your edible still
Onions I thought you would last nearly forever
So why did you give into the mould in the air
Coca-Cola I was going to drink you very soon
But you have gone flatter then I remembered you could
Be vegetarian
I think not
Hands Up, Hands down
2nd May 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Oh to be able to not touch my face
But my eyes they itch and my hair tickles
My mouth at the corners starts to dribble
And my nose feels like it’s going to sneeze
Oh what shall I do with my hands today
They seem to have a will of their own
It’s not all my fault I hear myself say
As I take the bit stuck in my teeth away
The answer seems simple I find
I wash my hands, face stops itching!
Hey you
1st May 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Hey you looking in the mirror with those bright eyes
If only I could show you who you were born to be
Deep inside there is magic made in heaven for you
All you have to do is own it and let the light show
Stop hiding it behind the depression and anxiety
It’s still you the young one full of potential and dreams
Only now there is added wisdom and knowledge
You can, do anything you put your mind to
So I dare you, throw away the skin of old fear
And reveal this creature full of light and love
I, we will be proud to see the old creation reborn
It may seem too late
But only the grave decides that
Us
21st April 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Who are we
Do we know each other well enough
We met as strangers
Now we are beginning to understand deeper
Where we came from
The past that shaped us, moulded like clay
The future that’s coming
Together we can face what ever lies ahead
When we dare to share
The connection is more than the sum of a few words
Threads are spun
A tapestry is interwoven with emotion and spirit
Stronger with friendship
Real friends are hard to find in only one life time
There are many of us
Only one you
Vulnerability
Birthplace of joy and creativity
19th April 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
What does it mean to be vulnerable
To know you choose this state of being
Showing who you truly are to the world
Unafraid of being discovered frail or short
Knowing you love yourself enough to trust
That who you are really is enough for now
Reaching depths of understanding that creates
Connections and ties that satisfy your soul
Transforming, fulfilling body and mind needs
Accepting the challenge to be authentically you
Strong in wisdom, soft in spirit and calm
When needed to hold it all together like now
Courage
To tell your heart story
I wait
19th April 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
My whole life I have been waiting for something
Waiting to find the man of my dreams appear
Looking for that perfect dress, in my colours and shape
Seeking the ideal summer day as in my youth
Searching for the God who will give me peace
Trying to find the recipe that will delight all
Wanting the best hair style to shape my face
Hoping to find the bluebell wood I see in paintings
Wishing to see the owls I hear in the night
Always waiting for life to be easier and more fun
I wait for dawn
And it’s worth the wait
The mind
18th April 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
The mind can think what it wants to think
And dream what it wants to dream
But I, the observer am learning to watch
Without identifying with what it says.
If I believe all it thinks and says
I find myself worrying, suffering, in pain
So I am learning to watch it do it’s stuff
Disbelieving it, and just get on with my day.
It does not say what I want it to say
And mean what I want it to mean
It keeps nattering away about past and future screens
But I want my mind to serve me well.
Not take me to places of hurt and pain
Not worry of things I have got so wrong
Or places I should never have seen or been
Things said that should never have been said.
In truth I see I am powerful, courageous and good
I can do the possible and often the impossible too
So mind, lets not think of the dark and the fear
But the light and the beauty all around me.
What I can do and what I can be
How amazing I’m made and what I can see
A beautiful world waiting for new life within
Forgetting yesterday, it no longer lives
Only in my mind and I can choose, the NOW.
I am not the sum of my future or past
I’m a new creation each and every day
Life is awaiting, the known and mysterious unknown
Waiting for me to conquer the fears I own
And to live my life in the here and now, NOW.
Dandelion Seeds
16th April 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Time stands still.
The smallest things become gifts...
Focus clears,
For the very first time you really see.
Hush and hear
Every tiny sound that nature makes.
Emotions strong
Coming and going never the same.
Touch is absent
For all those who now live alone.
You just know
Words cease needing to be said.
Hurting and pain
Produce gold, dig deep and find.
As for love
Look inside yourself, it’s in abundance,
Divine light,
Seek deeply, to find your hearts desire.
Time stands still.
Like dandelion seeds unblown...
All is love
20th March 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I go up a high tower in my mind
Closer to the sky the air is sweet
And as I peer all around me now
I see hints of spring here and there
White of daisy yellow celandine
Bits of blue forget me not
If I were to die in all of this
Or you or someone else thats close
Let us remember them with love
The life they lived the good in them
But while we live let’s really love
And love some more for love is all
Wrapped in safety
19th March 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I wrap myself in jammies and a quilt
Curl up in bed and close my eyes
I sigh a sigh, relief I’m safe for now
Leaving the hand washing and soap behind
I can touch all that I can feel from here
Fear drifts off as I now feel safe
I Close my eyes and remember better times
When I could hug, shake hands, kiss cheeks
Stand so close I could feel life’s breath
Laugh without worry of spreading germs
But now I notice from a distant smile
The postman with the sparkling eyes
The vision stays!
You and me
13th March 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Lets look at the person that is the real me
I know you have always been right there
Looked after the children others and yours
Pampered your husbands all three
Held groups, given dinners played the hostess
Cared for everyone, but what about me!
Well I fed you, dressed in colours you loved
Stretched your brain with scrabble and words
Took you for walks, swam, went to the gym
Visited places of beauty, kept out of the sun
Read self help books there were scores of them
And meditated each day for the last seven years
What more do you want out of me?
I want you to look in the mirror and see
The image you criticise and quickly pass
Look in those eyes as you would your lovers
Recognise all that you gave to the world
And how its now time to give this to me
The stranger who is your lovely self
Greet her each day with a smile
Ignore her no longer, give her your heart
Treat her with kindness, know her deep ways
Set the table for that special meal
Be happy dear heart you’ll always have me
So who am I, tell me or who are you?
I’m a mother, grandmother, sister and friend
A women of extremes powerful yet meek
Determined, patient honest and loyal
Have a passion for justice everywhere
Am a witness of what really goes on in life
I use words wisely I don’t waste them
I’m gentle, loving kind and in-touch
Recognise all emotions and give them time
Courage has been a big part of my life
To combat the fears instilled from my youth
I have no complaints just much gratitude
Being in the NOW as much as we - I can.
The more I understand me the greater I am!
A fair Brexit
8th March 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Welcome to the ‘Fair Brexit’!
Roll up, roll up roll up.
Put your votes here
Everyone’s a winner!
Wee, ja, si, yes, eye
Candycloss for all.
Fun rides free for all!
Swings and roundabouts,
Big dippers galore,
Blue and red bumper cars
Crash bang and rebound
Yellow and green in between.
Ping pong, pong ping,
We feel like fish in a bowl,
Round and round in circles
The whole country and me go,
Line up to the coconut shy
Let our anger be the balls.
We’re all show men here,
Nothing is what it seems.
Teresa, Boris and Jeremy
Look in the mirrors of fun,
Shape shifting is the game,
For power money and fame.
Down the helter shelter,
I feel sick with despair,
Twirl, twirl and twirl again
There seems no end in sight,
My safety mat has slipped away
I landed battered and bruised.
The Punch and Judy show!
Only the names have changed
To protect the puppets!
Gather round to see,
The show of a life time’s here
You will get your moneys worth.
So Teresa shouts and hits Jeremy
Jeremy refuses to play,
Boris says he will punch them all
If they don’t sign up today!
That’s the way to do it!
Oh no it isn’t, Oh yes it is.
Tired weary and broken
We mount the ghost train.
Scary images of the future
Haunted by propaganda spooks
Flashing images of poverty
And plastic flying in our face.
Boo Hoo Ha Ha Boo Hoo
It’s time to leave this place
Three and a Half years we’ve strayed
Brother against sister
Friends ready to fight
A time machine is needed
Taking us back to start new again
Perhaps next time, we can try Crazy Golf!
Extinction
29th February 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Wake up! Wake up!
Please, do not sleep
Our planet needs you now
Drought, floods, wind and fire
All caused by our neglect.
Arise, arise spread the word
Tell friends and neighbours too
It’s our duty to save this planet
Not the generations to come
That’s much too late, boo hoo!!
Speak out! Speak out, aloud
Lets all act with one accord
Businesses forget huge profits please
Be happy with small ones instead
Help! Our children need a future
Shake them! shake them up!
Our government must act now
We need a long term policy plan
Don’t ignore the scientific facts
It’s do or die for all of life, exactly that!
The Coronavirus may not get you
But the end of the world will.
Can't cure love
7th February 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
A love of twenty years, just broken
I wish I didn’t see right through you
I find I can’t forgive your cruel ways
But the love I have, before I really knew you
Just will not leave my heart and mind
It seems I cannot cure myself of love
Is it worth it?
7th February 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I can’t answer for you
But for me it definitely is
Everything that lives must die
Nothing lasts, no achievements
No great love, no governments
No empire, all from dust to dust
Life like a sandcastle
Built before the incoming tide
Made with care, love and joy
Crafted details, timeless time
Made as if to last for ever
Being in the moment as you build
Build life like it matters
Believe in what you enjoy
It’s the process, the act of learning
The sheer pointless fun of it
Find a purpose in just doing
Feel each part of every simple act
In the end none of it will last
It matters not what happens after
It’s now and only now that counts
So no more thinking, “do it later
Have fun when the work is done”
Now, is always all you’ll ever have
Yes! it’s worth it
Me, myself and I
4th February 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
He says ‘well you live alone anyway’
What does he know of the torment
Things to say but no one to hear them
No one on the same sheet in my mind
Needing to be listened to, understood
Like a ball bouncing back and forward
The words hit a wall of no response
And I can wonder what is the point of it all
Why bother making words into patterns
When no one hears them to give them life
Yet the words scream ‘come out and play’
But a game by yourself is not much fun
Playmate needed
To share Words
Evening Retire
4th February 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
The stones are plied up from the rough seas in front of me
The wind still strong in my face with flying hair tangled
It’s a dull cloudy day the air feels heavy with expectation
My eye lids feel they have great lead weights on them
Seagulls on thermals lifting drifting, shifting lazily together
Crows noisily fighting over scraps of food in plastic bags
Sea rumbling in the distance in no hurry journeying inward
Dark clouds alining gathering and threatening to rain
Another day of retirement lets make this a good one
Iv’e walked shopped done my washing and it’s hung
Have finished a painting as a thank you to a friend
Read some of my recommended book with exercises
A phone call from my son and another from my daughter
Granddaughter has had a good first morning in school
My large painting is a bit over powering with colour
Trying something new in reverse maybe not a good idea
But I like a challenge a purpose for being alive and here
Opportunities to learn something new and find good
Getting the day to balance out can be a real challenge
But today on reflection I would say that ‘I had done good’
Not another day in the office
Yippee
I field the memories
4th February 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I am sat in the middle of a field
Wild flowers scattered around
I pick a daisy a memory flashes
It’s the beginning of my marriage
I was the centre bright and loved
He was the petals white protecting
This symbol of out togetherness
A future of hope and happiness
Sadly white petals fade and die
Yellow centre crushed, destroyed
Hopes and dreams unfertilised
Roots not planted deep enough
The same applies to all relationships
Like plants some are harder to grow
They need renewal care and kindness
Ridding them of weeds, so to breathe
I have someone who makes me feel
Just like a daisy being plucked
She loves me then she loves me not
Plays with my mind sometimes a lot
For my family I am very grateful
Flesh and blood builds strong ties
I work hard to keep these connections
In a way that supports and natures us
I bring my mind back to here and now
I am so grateful for the time I have
To sit and think, pray and ponder life
In this wild and windy field today
Memories take much longer
Than flowers do to die
Wild Peace
28th January 2020
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Feeling despair for our world in your head
Heart aches for your family and friends
Can’t sleep in the night, just too up tight
Need to break from the fear and pain
I go to the ocean in my mind, hear waves
Imagine the flapping of seagulls wings
Feel the wind on my face and blow through my hair
I become part of the wild and the free
They do not over think their days
Just accepting life under what ever skies
Finding peace in the here and now
Connected to earth, air, sky and seas
My toolbox
26th July 2019
by Gilli-ann Prevett
I am sat in the middle of a field
Wild flowers scattered around
I pick a daisy a memory flashes
It’s the beginning of my marriage
I was the centre bright and loved
He was the petals white protecting
This symbol of out togetherness
A future of hope and happiness
Sadly white petals fade and die
Yellow centre crushed, destroyed
Hopes and dreams unfertilised
Roots not planted deep enough
The same applies to all relationships
Like plants some are harder to grow
They need renewal care and kindness
Ridding them of weeds, so to breathe
I have someone who makes me feel
Just like a daisy being plucked
She loves me then she loves me not
Plays with my mind sometimes a lot
For my family I am very grateful
Flesh and blood builds strong ties
I work hard to keep these connections
In a way that supports and natures us
I bring my mind back to here and now
I am so grateful for the time I have
To sit and think, pray and ponder life
In this wild and windy field today
Memories take much longer
Than flowers do to die
A moment being experienced
20th July 2014
by Gilli-ann Prevett
Cow parsley as far as the eye can see
And wow it's nearly as tall as me
Locked gate says " you must keep out"
But my joy by this sight is too much, I shout
My heart leaps over to photo the lot
The sun is high and I am hot
My spirit soars deep inside of me
A memory for winter I long to see
A reminder to live in the here and now
Makes the experience double fold
Some for now and some for later
Cake and eat it comes to my mind
Oh how we can make so much more of less
This could have been a place just passed
Instead it's restored my spirit and mind
Cost me nothing, just given some time
Its all about what's deep inside, what's hidden
Dig deep I say, feel the world around
See its beauty and listen to its sound
Wind's blowing, all form moves about
Ever changing Like we hope to be
Changing from what we are, to whom we can't see
Only God in his wisdom can see ahead
Thank you Lord for the kaleidoscope of life
For changes and challenges, the good and the great
For memories like pearls of wisdom to hold
Let us store them like apples are stored in a draw
Ready for winter and the long dark days
Lets throw out the rotten ones,
Just let them go, its hard I know, I know
But good foods for thought, file them away
They can't be bought it's important to say
You have to experience it all for yourself
Give yourself time to have fun and to play
YOU, no one else, before its too late
You too can sit at the farmers gate
And be in the here and now, NOW.