top of page
what is company

What is Company?

31st December 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

What is company

Is it real

 

I feel like a cutout girl today

With lots of clothes to pin on me

Hats gloves and shoes galore

Accessories all colours shapes and forms

 

Dressed differently for all occasions

Whether it be spring summer or fall

Make up that matches my outfits

Coats that are warm or extra lightweight

 

Every girls delight

 

So like my cardboard cutout girl

I have no real life outside this house

Nowhere safe to go and laugh

Without company life is so very flat

Oh how my cutout girl understands that!

She feels more real than she ever should

More important than is healthy too

But without her I would be alone for sure

 

Being made of cardboard

Might be an allure

lights my fire

What is company

Is it real

 

I feel like a cutout girl today

With lots of clothes to pin on me

Hats gloves and shoes galore

Accessories all colours shapes and forms

 

Dressed differently for all occasions

Whether it be spring summer or fall

Make up that matches my outfits

Coats that are warm or extra lightweight

 

Every girls delight

 

So like my cardboard cutout girl

I have no real life outside this house

Nowhere safe to go and laugh

Without company life is so very flat

Oh how my cutout girl understands that!

She feels more real than she ever should

More important than is healthy too

But without her I would be alone for sure

 

Being made of cardboard

Might be an allure

What Lights my fire

5th October 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I ask what gives me a buzz
That’s besides my front doorbell
And there, I don’t have one!
So thinking hard I wonder
And find myself writing this
Poetry is in my blood I find
A topic is all I need and I’m away
Juggling with words is great fun

Colour, I so love playing with
It’s almost limitless you see
I am always finding new ways
Recently challenged myself with white
I’m surprised how some colours
Become almost unrecognisable
I would not have seen this
Without all my experimentation

Intelligent conversation I love
Stretching my mind to know more
Looking at things from different angles
Seeing someone else’s point of view
The many twists and turns of learning
Knowing you will never know it all
I find this so very satisfying
With discovery there’s just has no end

Everyone who really knows me
Will tell you how very keen I am
To gain and share tools for Emotions
Which will help you navigate this life
The many ups and downs and hurdles
As you are pulled in all directions
Remember a tool is only useful
When used, not when left in it’s box

There seems to be
Quite a lot:-)

what am i alone

What am i alone?

4th October 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Who do I become in solitude
I have the potential to be content
I know because sometimes I am so
But I loose my sense of purpose
No one talking to me so no listening
When I need to express my joys
There is no one there to share
When something angers me inside
I only have me, to release pressure
What is life about if not connection
Life’s purpose on ones own isn’t clear
There is no one to give or receive from
Not even a single smile to give away
Unless you look in the mirror, that’s sad
I look into those eyes and wonder why
I live alone no one to care each day
I like myself and often my own company
I make my own rules, live my way
Do what I want when I want to
So there are many positives to life
I have a lovely family I am blessed
Many friends I am truly very fond of
But living alone is a cruel ending
To a life where I have given so much to so many

Alone I become
a smaller portion of myself

who is in control

Who is in control here?

19th September 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

We are pushed to the very limit
By emails we don’t even want
On overload always overwhelmed
How does this serve us I ask
I find it so hard to switch off
Knowing there’s always more

More more more, just go away
All I wanted to do just now
Was call a friend on the phone
Distractions catching my eye
I flicked from one thing to another
Not really getting anywhere

I dart from phone to iPad
I dare not miss a thing
There may be something important
That might even change my life
Really, do I believe this is true
I see sadly, some days I do

I need to turn this chaos
Around, in an orderly way
Ask my granddaughters help
File my emails, to important
I’ll see you later or not see at all
To Give me space and some time

Just the thought
Makes me feel better

we will remember

We will remember

5th August 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Your life for mine thank you

I am humbled by your gift

I salute you blessed souls

Gone to rest before your time

Love never dies it lingers on

In the hearts of those left behind

 

We will remember all who died

No matter what nationality

Showing through this very action

The futility of war, man’s sin

Let’s prize peace contentment

Death then may wait for aged men

 

Yes at the setting of the sun

We hear the bugler play again

The ‘Last Post’ a sombre note

A sign of respect for all souls

Ransomed healed restored forgiven

May we be all pardoned too

 

Let us not try to justify

The act of war

Pleasure Beach

4th August 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I’m down the beach the tide is right in

Waves rolling and slowly they release

You can almost taste the sea so salty

I could be anywhere in the whole world

I think of crab sandwiches in Cornwall

Fishing off the Quay lines bated waiting

 

My many children laughing and crying

Holidays when too tied at end of day

To do anything but sit and simply be

Eating anything filling hungry mouths

Tummies emptied from walking swimming

Feet stretched well used, holes in shoes

 

Early to bed soft clean sheets all ready

Bodies tied minds calming relaxing still

Every day should be a holiday you say

Until the rain comes and the wind blows

Your stuck inside with kids going wild

Praying for another summer day to come

 

A crane has just landed on the beach

This brings me back to the here and now

Long legs outstretched in line with neck

Like a dark grey chalk line across the sky

Too many people it moves quickly on

An unexpected treat on a summer eve

 

Minute spider walks on back of my hand

Then slowly up my arm his tickling me

I look down again and he has just gone

So tiny the hairs must have felt Forrest like

Boat in the distance where is he going

I sit people watching because I now can

 

Simple pleasures

We still have these

pleasure beach

A day in the life of

4th August 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I sit looking at the rolling sand dunes

A place of play when children young

The river meandering in front of me now

I close my eyes and see our rubber dingy

Children laughing splashing swimming

To the far left I see the sea with white surf

Remembering my son’s delight in surfing

Cherished memories long gone I paint

 

Have parked by the side of a nosey road

So eager was I to find a free parking space

This being my third mistake of the day

So brave going up a bank ‘spur of the moment’

Had I stopped to think I wouldn’t have done

Not sure how I am going to back off this

It’s alright to have courage to do and find

But had I left my adult sensible head behind

 

Got all my things ready to come out, last night

Way in advance packed neatly awaiting me

All I had to do was pick it all up and go

So thats just what I did, scouped and went

No thought for my phone which lay on bed

My alarm for this morning appointment at 10

I had High hopes for my day, outing at last

It’s been many months since I had a foray

 

Even got a mixing bowl with a lid and a hole

A toilet as most I have heard are closed

So here I sit the view is really lovely in sun

People paddling canoes helped by the wind

Dogs having fun wagging, shaking weeing

I realise I will have to wee too not so easy

I put my mixing bowl on the seat beside me

We look at each other, how is this done

 

I climb in the passenger seat sat up high

I watch the cars as they go by not knowing

That I am weeing and watching them too

Though I know I am covered not exposed

In the distance 2 horses and a pony ridden

Their seating high too much easier for sure

I smile because that is all one can do yes

This pandemic gets us doing the oddest things

 

But life goes on even if in a different way

The views haven’t changed, well some haven’t

People on surf type boards standing with paddle

Have only seen that done on TV before now

I don’t quite get the point of this sort of sport

That’s probably because I’m not the one doing

So many people out enjoying this weather

Haven’t see so many people for some months

 

I decide to go and park in an official car park

When I get there guess what? It’s already full

So off I drive till I find another off road park

Over looking the sea I’m on top of a steep cliff

To escape the noise of traffic and the wind

I take my seat cuppa soup and homemade bread

Down a cliff steeper than I had thought it was

I sit quietly though feeling rather vulnerable here

 

To one side I suddenly see a notice ‘falling cliffs’

I see a picture of my daughters frowning face

The trouble is I know just how right she is

I just wanted a quiet space with a view I say

Lunch is enjoyed and this poem written in pencil

Which decides to fall off my precarious lap

As I try to save it I nearly topple it’s long way

Oh how badly could this outing end I wonder

 

I decide to go, my adventure is on it’s way out

A chair and steep hill now that is a challenge

Kind young girl offers her help takes my chair

And stands there watching that I stay safe

I wanted so much to take her offered hand

But sadly my arms are not two metres long

Afterwards I realised I had hand sanitiser

So touching would have been alright outside

 

What have I got out of this sunny outing of mine

My glasses are mended that’s why I ventured

I have fresh air in lungs and pictures in my mind

Magically car’s in one piece though not my back

On the way home a field full of crows lined on fence

Others flapping and crowing a crowd gathering

All in all I am glad I went round the next bend

And I seem to have survived with no terrible end

 

Me at 75

Here’s to adventures never ending

a day in the life

Cwtch me when

4th August 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

It’s been so long

 

Cwtch a year old, it’s Happy Birthday

Who would have thought this name

Would be the very thing we couldn’t do

The most yearned and longed for of all

Touch me only on your iPad they say

Keep 2 metres away no matter what

 

This was the agony for most people

16 weeks without being hugged at all

Isolation, pain, desperation that’s sharp

Stiff upper lip was hard to keep to

Brave face with a smile on your lips

But in our hearts we are all crying

 

Touch the most precious of life’s gifts

As chemicals from two beings merge

Making something new that feels so good

When we don’t get touched we loose

The connection that’s so important

It makes us feel whole and very loved

 

Cwtch me when

One day soon

cwtch me when

My life safe - unsafe

2nd August 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Born safe with safe arms, warm milk and love, safe!
Age 0-5 safe, mummy and daddy always there for me, safe!
Age 5-8 unsafe chaos, can’t get it right mummy’s OCD now, oh!
Age 8-14 everywhere and nowhere that’s safe or mine, but a trunk!
Age 14-26 belong nowhere and no one to care, alone, unsafe!
Age 26-30 safe at last a house and a husband, I’m fine, safe!
But deep down I’m not safe, no one taught me how.
Age 30-40 An accident to husband, oh here goes again, unsafe!
Age 41-49 safe but not secure still not sorted that one out!
Age 50-501/2 so so so unsafe, alcohol rules his life, help, help!
Age 52-521/4 sigh of relief, I feel loved happy and safe, hurrah!
Age 521/4-67 chaos, controlled, at first I don’t see, just how unsafe it was for me
Until death showed its face, and all because of narcissistic personality complex B.
Age 67-now safe, safe, safe at last, it took a long long time,
Although I know that it is true, believing it is slow to come, but!
At last I can be who I am, no need for someone else I see,
Safe, no more unsafe for me, safe and sound for all to see,
Scared of no one not even of ME!

my life safe

What a sight!

21st July 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I find myself sat on the cliffs again

Well away from the edge this time

Sea is so calm and the ripples so small

I can see for miles 3 cliffs jutting out

The sun is warm and I forgot my hat

So I sit with my vest covering my head

 

Flies seem to like me, think it’s the white

A dozen or so buzzing quietly overhead

White trousers white vest white saddles

I try not to notice too much it’s so lovely

Have just painted the view not very well

But it’s got people talking to me, so nice

 

Am pleased with my day glasses fixed

Clothes that didn’t fit returned to source

Car full of petrol the first since lockdown

That’s four and a half months on one tank

Soup, bread, cheese square of chocolate

Can of coke enjoyed always naughty, nice

 

I think about the refugees coming by dingy

It would be a good day with calm water

I have so much to be thankful for today

And every other day we are so lucky

Here on this beautiful island a fab life

We should all remember this gratefully

 

No dangerous journey for us born here

Little understanding what others endure

Yet if they all end up coming to this land

How will we cope with the over crowding

Would we not do better to help them stay

Where they are, encouraging them at home

 

I want it to work

The best for us all

what a sight

A Morning

Touching friendship

21st July 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I sit in the garden of a friend

It’s shady here under the Acer

The dappled sunlight moving with the breeze

A dove coo coos in the background

 

Pale pink roses dripping colour

Along the wall in my direction

Their scent wafting in waves past me

I catch them in my nose and I remember

 

The many times before I have sniffed

This unmistakable full face aroma

Not a smell I really warm to much

But out here it feels so right, perfect

 

I have bought my watercolours

The intention is to paint some flowers

I look at the roses and I know

It must be them but they’re so hard

 

I remind myself it doesn’t matter

This is just a time to have some fun

So putting my pen down on the table

I pick up my paintbrush and I start

 

In the kitchen

Pans clatter

a morning

To Be or not to Be

19th July 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I so want to see my guardian Angel, in front of me
Is it that He is shy
Sometimes I can imagine Him wafting past awhile
When I am alone
He is often in my mind my heart and my soul
I await His touch
So light and gentle like a breeze that caresses me
In a different realm
Just the thought of His presence and I feel very safe
Invisible protection
No one can harm me as He watches over my being
Comfort and peace
Was that my hair He just tugged with a sense of fun
Or my imagination
Is the sun light playing with my eyes or is it really Him
Him or Her uncertain
I know I so want and need an Angel beside me now
The Bible promises?
I am not sure but they were there in times of old
So why not now

I see what I want to see
We all have choices

to be or not

A Midsummer Night's reel

28th June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

It’s 10.30 and still a little light tonight

New moon shines in windows corner

Stars twinkling hello to me from a far

Loneliness helped by certain knowledge

That many other people will be viewing

They also struggling with isolation too

 

I’ve just eaten home made rice pudding

Am glad no one can see exactly how much

I could be tempted to eat some more

Till I remember weighing scales waiting

It was bad enough last week so I must stop

I need to cook badly then I would stay slim

 

Sleep calls my name and I know I must go

Once I get there I know it will be all right

I slip into my so comfortable big bed

Wrap myself in a soft cosy warm blanket

Close my eyes and await the purple mist

Knowing sleep is just a few blinks away

 

A pivotal moment

Summer coming and going

midsummers night

One and One (a pair)

13th June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

An old lady walks slowly up the hill in front of me

Her ageing dog taking his time sniffing familiar smells

Neither of them hurrying the other one just being

Taking their time in acceptance of both their needs

I get a picture of patience togetherness these companions

Understanding each other in ways words can’t do

Knowing the ins and outs of their lives together

Bonded by their equal needs of the other

Age and time doesn’t enter their head space

Each day flows one into another and backwards

They don’t know what day it is or really care

Moulded one to the other in habits unspoken

It feels such a comfort to watch them pass by

Old age has it’s benefits, if you look close enough

 

Companionship score

Ten plus and more

one and one

Over 70s

Suffering Singles

23rd June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

The roads have been opened eventually

Ninety eight days without beach access

I try to leave some of my anger behind me

My over 70’s isolation unthought through

By leaders leaving people alone wrongly

Permission to join up with an isolated other

Would have saved so much mental pain

 

But no compassion shown by government

My isolation feels a complete waste of time

No one coming near me after three weeks

Could have caught anything from me or

If they had done the same thing I from them

So many people suffering unnecessarily

How long will we feel the effects I wonder?

 

It’s been an emotional time for me today

Deprived of people and my local beach

It’s been too much to bear to big an ask

I park and open my window and sniff

Sea air, is it really happening at long last

I get out excitedly I can see the horizon

Space sky seagulls sand sea I secretly cry

 

I take off my trainers and feel the sand

It’s warm and firm as I form foot prints

The sand squishes between my ten toes

I hear the distant sound of seagulls

The sea is right out so to meet I go

I missed you so much I tell it passionately

Like so much else and so many people

 

Will I ever be the same

Today I say no

over 70

Together we grow

20th June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I lie there exhausted yet so fulfilled

A nurse hands me a weighty bundle

And as he is placed in my arms

An enormous wave of love fills me

 

This wave so powerful envelopes us

We are still one, totally connected

I wrap my arms around him with a promise

I will protect you, you’re safe with me

 

We slowly grow in confidence together

He is new to this big world of ours

I am new to motherhood, it’s a first

We shift and reshape what works for us

 

Learning together what it means to love

Love is not something I have understood

No one to teach me as a young child

What does total acceptance mean

 

He teaches me so much about trust

Another word I’d not fully understood

So hand in hand we walk this journey

Day by day we grow develop, change

 

When he is hurting I can empathise

Oh poor you I tell him with a hug

Isn’t that what we all need and want

Entering breathing that is more than our own

 

I was not the perfect mother of all time

I made mistakes along the pathway

I had my own issues to contend with

My mental health was never great

 

But I was always there to really listen

Never doubted your great capabilities

Knew you were special, a gifted son

But no experience on how to help with this

 

I love you son through thick and thin

As you show me you love me too

The greatest gift was given to me

I was the chosen one to berth you

 

How deep how wide the Hare asked

Does your love really measure big

As arms out spread both ways across

Yes I say, but with a giants arms

 

As you grow I slowly let go the strands

That have held us close so long

I watch you make your own world

I see weaknesses grow into strengths

 

Your apart of me, yes that’s literally

As I was built of parts of my mum too

She too ill to see who I grew up to be

So I feel privileged and appreciate you

 

Time goes by and as I get older

I know one day I will leave this world

My sadness is not that death will come

But that I will no longer see my son

 

A mothers love never dies

It last the test of time

together we grow

What's Better?

10th June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

What’s Better

Nothing

 

Nothing could be better in the whole world

Than wanting nothing content and at peace

But how often do we get to feel this way

Not nearly often enough, what a shame

 

I can however remember the last time

Sitting in my Body park swinging my legs

Listening to the birds and thinking, perfect

Unwilling to let go of this space and time

 

Oh to be back to this memory once again

If not physically I can be there in my mind

Sitting here on a rainy day eyes closed

Searching for a repeat of that lovely time

 

We don’t need money, possessions fame

Just be willing and grateful for here and now

But it is never going to be an easy option

It means letting go of should be’s and must’s

 

Can we do it

It is possible

Whats better

Wanted

Words from another world

10th June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I had a mother so long long ago

I hardly knew her she was always ill

What I wouldn’t give to have writing that she left

A peek into who she was, what she thought

A sentence I would settle for, though I want more

To touch that part of her hidden by her pain

To hear her words, ones not expressing grief

But ones of joy the child in her could share

Her interests and her hopes and dreams

What she was good at, what she loved to do

Sadly I have to settle to look inside of me

She would have imparted some of her values

And my character would be partly etched by her

I look inside me and see some of her shine through

 

I Settled for

What she had built in me

Wanted

Looking for the light

8th June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Looking for the light

To get me through another day

 

Highlights of my day must be

My first conscious thoughts

Is it time to awaken just now

Or can I snooze some more

 

I love the first stretch tip to toe

Then into Pilates lying down

30 mins knowing I’m doing well

Tea calls me to sip it’s nectar next

 

Warm soapy water glides over skin

Then shower turned to icy cold

Brace myself one side then another

Invigorated wrapped in towel with ‘halo’

 

Porridge served with fruit and yogurt

Healthy and tasty start to each day

Catch up with emails some are good

Play Words with Friends ‘I don’t know’

 

Pause, coffee time with chicory

Dark smooth chocolate eighty percent

Melting in the mouth rich and silky

As I drink deep tastes twist together

 

Time to walk see what nature’s doing

Feel the breeze brushing my face

The sun warming me right through

Or rain pitter patter on my hood

 

The day shape shifting slowly changing

Into timeless space as I drift forward

From one day to the next and the next

Holding on as best I can to here and now

 

Lunch a light meal with green salad

Dribbled with salad cream and cheese

Washed down with occasional treat

Cola, addiction I have found again

 

On to visualisation or to meditate

Visit a lake house under the stars

Or feeling freedom in hot air balloon

Swim with a mermaid under the sea

 

Time to tidy and clean this place

Looks so good when it’s all done

Prepare the dinner meat and veg

Phone call always from my son

 

Now with not much get up and go

I turn the telly on, but not for long

Not much to view that interests me

Maybe I will try an old film instead

 

Up the stairs phone and iPad in tow

Hot wheat-bag wrapped around my neck

Call daughter to say ‘good night dear’

Another day of lockdown done

 

83 days and counting

How many more

Looking for light

Upwards and Inwards

2nd June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Upwards and inwards

Not straight forward

 

I would like to see light at the end of the tunnel

But everywhere I turn I hear doom and gloom

There is forever hope I tell myself very sternly

Man has always found ways to turn things around

 

I think we are up against the wall big this time

Have we the will to take the very necessary steps

Can we let go of the need to make a huge profit

And just be pleased to work with this wonderful world

 

I’d like to think love and kindness were our masters

Sharing and caring contributing the gifts we all have

Not asking for the ‘world’ to satisfy our every desire

But finding contentment with being ‘fed and watered’

 

I believe there’s a pathway hiding amongst the trees

If we really want we will find the key one day maybe

Being open to all possibilities taking a different root

Seeing with new eyes what is really important to us

 

Sharing the depth of what is deep inside each of us

Finding new ways to be satisfied with what we have

Not always needing the next new fad that comes along

Fulfilling our need in the simple pleasures of friendship

 

 

Then and only then

Will we know how

upwards and inwards

One God of all people

With many names

2nd June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

There is only one God of this amazing world
He has different names, given by many people
But most of His attributes are nearly the same
So lets concentration on all our similarities

Lets worship as we all need to worship Him
Bow down and praise His Holy of Holy names
Giving thanks for all that He has given to us
Being humble contrite and really meaning this

Lets not say the words and think we're done!
But work on them making them part of us
Knowing it is only in the act of doing this
That we can feel at peace inside of us

Let’s not need to tell the world we’re right
But listen to what God has said to us
And in the listening ask for His wise counsel
So we know how to be all He meant us to be

We can be so much more
Let’s do it!

one god

Healing Needed

2nd June 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I don’t need anyone to tell me what to do
I just need to be heard what I’m going through
I have so much knowledge and tools to use
And though essential they only help in part

No solutions please! just love and time
It’s connection empathy and a heart to hear
So if I really listen to what you say and feel
When it’s my turn will you do the same for me

And in this sharing of our deepest thoughts
Healing will have a chance, a process starting
Our brokenness fears rejection and isolation
Begin to take there place along the well trod road

Of Life
Love shared for healing

healing needed

Letting go of the day

In tomorrow's hope

18th May 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

In the darkness of my mind this minute
I wonder how I can break through the gloom
I have the feeling of being worthy of love
Yet no one to love me as I have long for
How does one hold onto knowing you’re lovable
When there is no one to show you it’s true
Holding your own hand in the black moments
It’s so hard, keep believing in yourself each day
I know we are all alone in our minds but
With love and encouragement we can see light
Alone and it’s bedtime no one to say good night
The night swamps me and I feel I will drown
Put one foot in front of another up the stairs
Pull the blanket of today over my head
Tomorrow and tomorrow will come without help

So will the night
Let’s look for a star

letting go of the day

If only I knew

16th May 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

How low do the lows have to really get

Before you can turn them around in your head

How many cries do you have to let go of

Before you can find peace even for awhile

 

How low

 

How long do we torture ourselves with feeling of loss

Before we can find a new way to be alone

How much pain do we carry from childhood

Before we see it’s only alive now, in our minds

 

How long

 

How will we find a way of expressing our desolation

Before someone really sees, and does it matter

How can anyone make a difference to what we feel

Before we ourselves nurture the joy we were born with

 

How will

 

How closed with stiff upper lip do we soldier on

Before the tears pour out of our eyes and we sob

How long do we go with out asking for help

Before we give in and find asking is all we needed

 

How closed

 

How can we know how to share ourselves with others

Before we spend time getting to know ourselves

How much love do we each hold in our hearts

Before we are willing to share some with the world

 

How can

 

How deep does love go, will we ever really know

Before we give up looking as it seems so hopeless

How far will we go to find the Spirit inside of us

Before we pass on to the world far beyond this

 

Soon, before then

One can only hope

if only i knew

No One's Slave

10th May 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I sit and feel the freedom in me and I know
I am no ones slave only my own master
No longer needing someone close beside me
Just the strength I was born with so long ago
70 years it has taken for me to understand this
Yours full of heartache hardship and pain
Giving and more giving in the hope of receiving love
But all in vain to men who only knew their own needs
Feeding others to meet my own unmet love
Driven to find the connection I so long, Yes yearn for
But connection to self seems the only option available
I am so glad I’ve worked hard to build who I am
Because I am my only company these long virus months

I think I’ve got it
The next minute it’s gone

no ones slave

Nature Unlocked

3rd May 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

My mind travels the many scenes of recent times

The orange sky peering through the distant trees

Celandines shinning like stars in the meadows

Watching the leaves daily as from buds they open

 

The velvety multicoloured bumble bees buzzing

Pennywort in walls, am told an edible feast for me

Bluebells wax like before my eyes slowly opening

Blackbirds saying ‘I am a very clever boy’ ‘thank you’

 

Cherry blossom pirouetting as ballet dancers twirl

Pink carpet of blossom awaiting the arrival of bride

Lambs feeding, prancing, tails wagging, sleeping

The sun encouraging us all to go out for a walk

 

We go from gushing brook to slow flowing stream

Dandelion seeds unblown seem fairytale like

Blackbirds before me in the air fiercely fighting

Black beetle slowly lifting just two legs at a time

 

Field from my window viewed, blue hue of Forget me nots

Blossom like snow falling over and around me

Flies all shapes and sizes with different vibrations

Making an orchestra with Bumble bee support

 

Locked down and typing

I remember

nature unlocked

As I Sit (meditations)

3rd May 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

1..

 

I look for answers

Ways to chill my mind

And I remember

Just breathe, the first step

 

Now concentrating on NOW

Breathe in and slowly out

Feel the breath where it is

Nose, chest or tummy below

 

Breath, breathing it’s self

No need for you to help

Mind wonders, thats ok

Just bring it back, feel the breath

 

2..

 

One of the answers

Feel my feet on the floor

Body where it touches the chair

Wait bearing down and heavy

 

I find a comfy place in body

Maybe hands, legs or feet

I explore and enjoy the feeling

I stay with it for a while

 

Mind wonders to past and future

I bring it gently back to body

Grateful for the peace I’m getting

Being in the here and now

as i sit

Just Veg

2nd May 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Oh thank you white cabbage for staying fresh so long

Without you dinner would’ve been decidedly dull

Spinach so bright green or at least you were

I forgot about you wilting and hidden away

And potatoes with long white shoots showing

You’re definitely on my list of foods that keep

Bananas I wish you hadn’t gone spotty so quick

I’ll freeze you and hope your edible still

Onions I thought you would last nearly forever

So why did you give into the mould in the air

Coca-Cola I was going to drink you very soon

But you have gone flatter then I remembered you could

 

Be vegetarian

I think not

just veg

Hands Up, Hands down

2nd May 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Oh to be able to not touch my face

But my eyes they itch and my hair tickles

My mouth at the corners starts to dribble

And my nose feels like it’s going to sneeze

 

Oh what shall I do with my hands today

They seem to have a will of their own

It’s not all my fault I hear myself say

As I take the bit stuck in my teeth away

 

The answer seems simple I find

I wash my hands, face stops itching!

hands up

Hey you

1st May 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Hey you looking in the mirror with those bright eyes

If only I could show you who you were born to be

Deep inside there is magic made in heaven for you

All you have to do is own it and let the light show

Stop hiding it behind the depression and anxiety

It’s still you the young one full of potential and dreams

Only now there is added wisdom and knowledge

You can, do anything you put your mind to

So I dare you, throw away the skin of old fear

And reveal this creature full of light and love

I, we will be proud to see the old creation reborn

 

It may seem too late

But only the grave decides that

hey you

Us

21st April 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Who are we

Do we know each other well enough

We met as strangers

Now we are beginning to understand deeper

Where we came from

The past that shaped us, moulded like clay

The future that’s coming

Together we can face what ever lies ahead

When we dare to share

The connection is more than the sum of a few words

Threads are spun

A tapestry is interwoven with emotion and spirit

Stronger with friendship

Real friends are hard to find in only one life time

 

There are many of us

Only one you

us

Vulnerability

Birthplace of joy and creativity

19th April 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

What does it mean to be vulnerable

To know you choose this state of being

Showing who you truly are to the world

Unafraid of being discovered frail or short

 

Knowing you love yourself enough to trust

That who you are really is enough for now

Reaching depths of understanding that creates

Connections and ties that satisfy your soul

 

Transforming, fulfilling body and mind needs

Accepting the challenge to be authentically you

Strong in wisdom, soft in spirit and calm

When needed to hold it all together like now

 

Courage

To tell your heart story

vulnerability

I wait

19th April 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

My whole life I have been waiting for something

Waiting to find the man of my dreams appear

Looking for that perfect dress, in my colours and shape

Seeking the ideal summer day as in my youth

Searching for the God who will give me peace

Trying to find the recipe that will delight all

Wanting the best hair style to shape my face

Hoping to find the bluebell wood I see in paintings

Wishing to see the owls I hear in the night

Always waiting for life to be easier and more fun

 

I wait for dawn

And it’s worth the wait

I wait

The mind

18th April 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

The mind can think what it wants to think

And dream what it wants to dream

But I, the observer am learning to watch

Without identifying with what it says.

 

If I believe all it thinks and says

I find myself worrying, suffering, in pain

So I am learning to watch it do it’s stuff

Disbelieving it, and just get on with my day.

 

It does not say what I want it to say

And mean what I want it to mean

It keeps nattering away about past and future screens

But I want my mind to serve me well.

 

Not take me to places of hurt and pain

Not worry of things I have got so wrong

Or places I should never have seen or been

Things said that should never have been said.

 

In truth I see I am powerful, courageous and good

I can do the possible and often the impossible too

So mind, lets not think of the dark and the fear

But the light and the beauty all around me.

 

What I can do and what I can be

How amazing I’m made and what I can see

A beautiful world waiting for new life within

Forgetting yesterday, it no longer lives

Only in my mind and I can choose, the NOW.

 

I am not the sum of my future or past

I’m a new creation each and every day

Life is awaiting, the known and mysterious unknown

Waiting for me to conquer the fears I own

And to live my life in the here and now, NOW.

The mind

Dandelion Seeds

16th April 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Time stands still.

The smallest things become gifts...

 

Focus clears,

For the very first time you really see.

Hush and hear

Every tiny sound that nature makes.

Emotions strong

Coming and going never the same.

Touch is absent

For all those who now live alone.

You just know

Words cease needing to be said.

Hurting and pain

Produce gold, dig deep and find.

As for love

Look inside yourself, it’s in abundance,

Divine light,

Seek deeply, to find your hearts desire.

 

Time stands still.

Like dandelion seeds unblown...

dandelion seeds

All is love

20th March 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I go up a high tower in my mind

Closer to the sky the air is sweet

And as I peer all around me now

I see hints of spring here and there

White of daisy yellow celandine

Bits of blue forget me not

 

If I were to die in all of this

Or you or someone else thats close

Let us remember them with love

The life they lived the good in them

But while we live let’s really love

And love some more for love is all

all is lov

Wrapped in safety

19th March 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I wrap myself in jammies and a quilt

Curl up in bed and close my eyes

I sigh a sigh, relief I’m safe for now

Leaving the hand washing and soap behind

I can touch all that I can feel from here

Fear drifts off as I now feel safe

 

I Close my eyes and remember better times

When I could hug, shake hands, kiss cheeks

Stand so close I could feel life’s breath

Laugh without worry of spreading germs

But now I notice from a distant smile

The postman with the sparkling eyes

 

The vision stays!

wrapped in safety

You and me

13th March 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Lets look at the person that is the real me

I know you have always been right there

Looked after the children others and yours

Pampered your husbands all three

Held groups, given dinners played the hostess

Cared for everyone, but what about me!

 

Well I fed you, dressed in colours you loved

Stretched your brain with scrabble and words

Took you for walks, swam, went to the gym

Visited places of beauty, kept out of the sun

Read self help books there were scores of them

And meditated each day for the last seven years

 

What more do you want out of me?

I want you to look in the mirror and see

The image you criticise and quickly pass

Look in those eyes as you would your lovers

Recognise all that you gave to the world

And how its now time to give this to me

 

The stranger who is your lovely self

Greet her each day with a smile

Ignore her no longer, give her your heart

Treat her with kindness, know her deep ways

Set the table for that special meal

Be happy dear heart you’ll always have me

 

So who am I, tell me or who are you?

I’m a mother, grandmother, sister and friend

A women of extremes powerful yet meek

Determined, patient honest and loyal

Have a passion for justice everywhere

Am a witness of what really goes on in life

 

I use words wisely I don’t waste them

I’m gentle, loving kind and in-touch

Recognise all emotions and give them time

Courage has been a big part of my life

To combat the fears instilled from my youth

I have no complaints just much gratitude

 

Being in the NOW as much as we - I can.

The more I understand me the greater I am!

you and me

A fair Brexit

8th March 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Welcome to the ‘Fair Brexit’!
Roll up, roll up roll up.
Put your votes here
Everyone’s a winner!
Wee, ja, si, yes, eye
Candycloss for all.

Fun rides free for all!
Swings and roundabouts,
Big dippers galore,
Blue and red bumper cars
Crash bang and rebound
Yellow and green in between.

Ping pong, pong ping,
We feel like fish in a bowl,
Round and round in circles
The whole country and me go,
Line up to the coconut shy
Let our anger be the balls.

We’re all show men here,
Nothing is what it seems.
Teresa, Boris and Jeremy
Look in the mirrors of fun,
Shape shifting is the game,
For power money and fame.

Down the helter shelter,
I feel sick with despair,
Twirl, twirl and twirl again
There seems no end in sight,
My safety mat has slipped away
I landed battered and bruised.

The Punch and Judy show!
Only the names have changed
To protect the puppets!
Gather round to see,
The show of a life time’s here
You will get your moneys worth.


So Teresa shouts and hits Jeremy
Jeremy refuses to play,
Boris says he will punch them all
If they don’t sign up today!
That’s the way to do it!
Oh no it isn’t, Oh yes it is.

Tired weary and broken
We mount the ghost train.
Scary images of the future
Haunted by propaganda spooks
Flashing images of poverty
And plastic flying in our face.

Boo Hoo Ha Ha Boo Hoo

It’s time to leave this place
Three and a Half years we’ve strayed
Brother against sister
Friends ready to fight
A time machine is needed
Taking us back to start new again

Perhaps next time, we can try Crazy Golf!

fair brexit

Extinction

29th February 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Wake up! Wake up!

Please, do not sleep

Our planet needs you now

Drought, floods, wind and fire

All caused by our neglect.

 

Arise, arise spread the word

Tell friends and neighbours too

It’s our duty to save this planet

Not the generations to come

That’s much too late, boo hoo!!

 

Speak out! Speak out, aloud

Lets all act with one accord

Businesses forget huge profits please

Be happy with small ones instead

Help! Our children need a future

 

Shake them! shake them up!

Our government must act now

We need a long term policy plan

Don’t ignore the scientific facts

It’s do or die for all of life, exactly that!

 

The Coronavirus may not get you

But the end of the world will.

extinction

Can't cure love

7th February 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

A love of twenty years, just broken

I wish I didn’t see right through you

I find I can’t forgive your cruel ways

But the love I have, before I really knew you

Just will not leave my heart and mind

It seems I cannot cure myself of love

cant cure love

Is it worth it?

7th February 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I can’t answer for you

But for me it definitely is

Everything that lives must die

Nothing lasts, no achievements

No great love, no governments

No empire, all from dust to dust

 

Life like a sandcastle

Built before the incoming tide

Made with care, love and joy

Crafted details, timeless time

Made as if to last for ever

Being in the moment as you build

 

Build life like it matters

Believe in what you enjoy

It’s the process, the act of learning

The sheer pointless fun of it

Find a purpose in just doing

Feel each part of every simple act

 

In the end none of it will last

It matters not what happens after

It’s now and only now that counts

So no more thinking, “do it later

Have fun when the work is done”

Now, is always all you’ll ever have

 

Yes! it’s worth it

is it worth it

Me, myself and I

4th February 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

He says ‘well you live alone anyway’

What does he know of the torment

Things to say but no one to hear them

No one on the same sheet in my mind

Needing to be listened to, understood

Like a ball bouncing back and forward

The words hit a wall of no response

And I can wonder what is the point of it all

Why bother making words into patterns

When no one hears them to give them life

Yet the words scream ‘come out and play’

But a game by yourself is not much fun

 

Playmate needed

To share Words

me myself and i

Evening Retire

4th February 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

The stones are plied up from the rough seas in front of me

The wind still strong in my face with flying hair tangled

It’s a dull cloudy day the air feels heavy with expectation

My eye lids feel they have great lead weights on them

 

Seagulls on thermals lifting drifting, shifting lazily together

Crows noisily fighting over scraps of food in plastic bags

Sea rumbling in the distance in no hurry journeying inward

Dark clouds alining gathering and threatening to rain

 

Another day of retirement lets make this a good one

Iv’e walked shopped done my washing and it’s hung

Have finished a painting as a thank you to a friend

Read some of my recommended book with exercises

 

A phone call from my son and another from my daughter

Granddaughter has had a good first morning in school

My large painting is a bit over powering with colour

Trying something new in reverse maybe not a good idea

 

But I like a challenge a purpose for being alive and here

Opportunities to learn something new and find good

Getting the day to balance out can be a real challenge

But today on reflection I would say that ‘I had done good’

 

Not another day in the office

Yippee

evening retire

I field the memories

4th February 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I am sat in the middle of a field
Wild flowers scattered around
I pick a daisy a memory flashes
It’s the beginning of my marriage

I was the centre bright and loved
He was the petals white protecting
This symbol of out togetherness
A future of hope and happiness

Sadly white petals fade and die
Yellow centre crushed, destroyed
Hopes and dreams unfertilised
Roots not planted deep enough

The same applies to all relationships
Like plants some are harder to grow
They need renewal care and kindness
Ridding them of weeds, so to breathe

I have someone who makes me feel
Just like a daisy being plucked
She loves me then she loves me not
Plays with my mind sometimes a lot

For my family I am very grateful
Flesh and blood builds strong ties
I work hard to keep these connections
In a way that supports and natures us

I bring my mind back to here and now
I am so grateful for the time I have
To sit and think, pray and ponder life
In this wild and windy field today

Memories take much longer
Than flowers do to die

field memories

Wild Peace

28th January 2020

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Feeling despair for our world in your head

Heart aches for your family and friends

Can’t sleep in the night, just too up tight

Need to break from the fear and pain

 

I go to the ocean in my mind, hear waves

Imagine the flapping of seagulls wings

Feel the wind on my face and blow through my hair

I become part of the wild and the free

 

They do not over think their days

Just accepting life under what ever skies

Finding peace in the here and now

Connected to earth, air, sky and seas

wild peace

My toolbox

26th July 2019

by Gilli-ann Prevett

I am sat in the middle of a field
Wild flowers scattered around
I pick a daisy a memory flashes
It’s the beginning of my marriage

I was the centre bright and loved
He was the petals white protecting
This symbol of out togetherness
A future of hope and happiness

Sadly white petals fade and die
Yellow centre crushed, destroyed
Hopes and dreams unfertilised
Roots not planted deep enough

The same applies to all relationships
Like plants some are harder to grow
They need renewal care and kindness
Ridding them of weeds, so to breathe

I have someone who makes me feel
Just like a daisy being plucked
She loves me then she loves me not
Plays with my mind sometimes a lot

For my family I am very grateful
Flesh and blood builds strong ties
I work hard to keep these connections
In a way that supports and natures us

I bring my mind back to here and now
I am so grateful for the time I have
To sit and think, pray and ponder life
In this wild and windy field today

Memories take much longer
Than flowers do to die

toolbox

A moment being experienced

20th July 2014

by Gilli-ann Prevett

Cow parsley as far as the eye can see
And wow it's nearly as tall as me
Locked gate says " you must keep out"
But my joy by this sight is too much, I shout

My heart leaps over to photo the lot
The sun is high and I am hot
My spirit soars deep inside of me
A memory for winter I long to see

A reminder to live in the here and now
Makes the experience double fold
Some for now and some for later
Cake and eat it comes to my mind

Oh how we can make so much more of less
This could have been a place just passed
Instead it's restored my spirit and mind 
Cost me nothing, just given some time

Its all about what's deep inside, what's hidden
Dig deep I say, feel the world around
See its beauty and listen to its sound
Wind's blowing, all form moves about

Ever changing Like we hope to be
Changing from what we are, to whom we can't see
Only God in his wisdom can see ahead
Thank you Lord for the kaleidoscope of life

For changes and challenges, the good and the great
For memories like pearls of wisdom to hold
Let us store them like apples are stored in a draw
Ready for winter and the long dark days

Lets throw out the rotten ones,
Just let them go, its hard I know, I know
But good foods for thought, file them away
They can't be bought it's important to say

You have to experience it all for yourself
Give yourself time to have fun and to play
YOU, no one else, before its too late
You too can sit at the farmers gate

And be in the here and now, NOW.

a moment
bottom of page